Aftermath: A Freeform Poem
In that moment when everyone’s looking I can keep it in.
Focus. Focus on what’s in front of you.
In that moment I can hold it together.
But as soon as I get back to my room
In that moment I fall apart.
shaky sweaty
too warm too loud too clumsy too fast too much
Focus. Focus on what’s in front of you.
was i like this all night
and i just didn’t notice til now
i thought i was in control of myself
but now i’m too lost
within myself
to know
Focus.
Focus.
Focus.
why do i do it
always do this
now i have it right here at my fingertips
always have this
looking at a shadow that can’t look back
always know this
Stop.
Tomorrow, you’ll be all right again.
But for tonight, just smile and
breathe.